When I withdraw, I feel the pain of separation immediately. When I regroup, I go out to all the people; that is my regrouping. It is completely happy for me to know that you all are my salvation. It is not negative dependency, but pure relief.

What you call without, I call within. And I go to without whenever I’m tired, whenever my nerves are on edge, whenever I feel separated and difficult, and it fixes me. And then maybe I’m strong enough to stand another bout of being by myself.